| Life In Sweden Vlog |
[ August 3rd, 2008 | 6:35pm ] |
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I decided to take down the 'Life in Sweden' blog and instead attempt doing a vlog so that my parents can SEE how I live and experience Sweden rather than just read about it. Hopefully I'll get the guts to get that started next week when Tobias and I go to his mom's summer house to celebrate his birthday. Hopefully that'll give me something to talk about...to myself...to a camera...ugggh gotta get over my camera-shyness lol XD.
Soooo yeah, kinda short this time. Not much to say. Hopefully I'll have more news in the following weeks.
-MARs
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| Little Sweden. |
[ May 15th, 2008 | 11:28pm ] |
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I will be going on a little Hiatus from this blog while I start a new one focused on my travels and stay in Sweden. I felt I needed to do this because I originally wanted to devote this blog to my writing and projects rather than bog it down with travel stories. When I get the blog all set up I'll post the link below. All posts from now on will most likely be on that blog...toodles for now!!!
Little Sweden - An American Living in Sverige!
-MARs
Edit: It looks like LiveJournal turned into a retarded ass around March it seems that any new accounts made after March...something...can't get 'basic' accounts like I have with this one instead you're forced to have Plus or get a Paid account. Meaning...if you don't pay they'll slap on some fucked up ads on your blog which are annoying, I DON'T GIVE A SHIT ABOUT EXTRA FEATURES BITCH!
So yeah, turns out I had to go with Blogspot once again...so I changed the link. Sorry Livejournal, you suck ass and need to get laid. I hate you.
(I'll still use LiveJournal for this account only until they strip it of 'Basic' then I'll be forced to move my MarsDefden blog to Blogspot...until then you can still keep an eye on this one.)
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| Yay Sweden!! |
[ May 15th, 2008 | 11:13pm ] |
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I've actually been in Sweden for about two weeks now but I haven't gotten a chance to blog really. I've been mostly sleeping, craving American junk food, and playing video games.
The trip over here was HECTIC. My mom, little sister, and I rented a cheap hotel room in Orlando (about 2-3 hours from my hometown) the day before my plane left since it was leaving at 10:56am. It went great really, we went to Medieval Times as a last minute 'hurrah' since I wouldn't be coming back to America for at least a few years. Then the following morning we all went to iHop and had some yummy pancakes. I did my best to gobble down all the American foods I knew I'd be missing.
Then the trouble started. Mom wanted to avoid the toll booths to get to the airport so we tried some backwards, loopty-looping, navigation to avoid the tolls but we could insanely lost and we were going to miss the flight. I was freaking out but tried not to worry too much about it. When I arrived at the airport I had 30min. till take off which is bad, it takes 30min+ just to get through security....about now I was really freaking out but only on the inside.
Turns out I was way too late and then I started crying buckets. I saved up forever for those tickets and to get a last minute itinerary change would cost 2-4k when initially I only paid 700$. Fortunetly the people at NorthWest/KLM Dutch Airlines KICK ASS. The man there set me all up on a flight that was leaving only 15-30min later than my original flight and he did it FOR FREE I didn't have to pay anything! To hurry the process he even took me right past security so I didn't have to go through, that saved me TONS of time, I felt like royalty and I was SO FUCKING HAPPY.
The new itinerary he gave me actually made me arrive in Stockholm 2 hours earlier than my original flight plan and my SAS ticket to Luleå was on a separate 'itinerary' seeing as KLM isn't partners with them I bought it separate so yeah I had to wait in Arlanda (Stockholm) for 5 bloody hours on 20hours straight of no sleep. I was exhausted...
But yeah, everything went well, I got all my luggage, nothing was broken. I arrived on time and Tobias was there to greet me :)
After that I crashed for about 3-5 days basically sleeping 15-20hours of the day and eating during my very few waking hours.
-MARs
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| Hello Nurse. |
[ February 25th, 2008 | 11:27am ] |
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This week has been very hectic. First off I was sick with sinus infection and a sore throat all while having breathing problems brought on by all that. Saturday I actually had an asthma attack I was freaking out I didn’t really think it was an asthma attack, I mean I’ve had them before but…eh. It felt like breathing through a coffee straw that had been severely bent and chewed on by a teething two year old. I called mom and she came over we tried some old home remedies but nothing worked we ended up calling the ER and I got totted away in an ambulance. It was crazy I couldn’t believe I was getting taken away I didn’t realize how severe it was till that point. My heart rate was up at 160-170 due to me taking about 50 puffs of my inhaler in succession lol…at my age, weight, height etc. my heart rate should be at 70, the paramedics were panicking because not only that but I was having irregular heart beats. Luckily for me mom told me to take one of Tobias’s Xanex so 3 hours in the hospital felt like 30min. and I didn’t care what the hell happened I just went with the flow. They pumped a lot of steroids in me to build back up my lungs or whatever? Not exactly sure, first time I’ve ever had an IV though. They also hooked me up to a nebulizer machine thing most of the time, and they did an EKG x-ray and stuff… Meh. I’m fine now though, but man what a hell of an adventure. Time to recoup. Hopefully when this is all over and I’m fully healed I can get back on top of my writing till then…I must sleep @_@. -MARs
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| Happy New Years Eve! |
[ December 31st, 2007 | 9:10pm ] |
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Gaaahahagrehyehtrhgfhjfyijfdhjtrytryrgrdyyiurt!!!
Ok now that that is over with I can get on to the point XD. Like I said last week, the holidays have royally fucked me over. We ordered Tobias a double bass drum pedal and I'm getting a Nintendo DS Lite!!! I'm SO excited!!! I can't wait!
I've been working on IBYS and it's coming along. Tomorrow and Wednesday are going to be 'writing marathons' where I get the book finished. It should be easy I mean the book is 'finished' I'm just going back and fixing grammatical errors and making it sound better. I don't know why the hell the re-write process is taking longer than the first time. WTFZ.
Anyways, to the good part.
My New Year's Resolutions:
1. Make monehz to save for Sweden trip.
2. Get married to Tobias <3
3. Get Swedish residence permit
4. GET AN AGENT!!!111
5. Get published.
Is that too much to ask?!
Next week will probably be about me fangirling over my new Nintendo DS Lite and how much I love it, plus if I'm lucky I'll be bragging on how awesome I am for finally finishing IBYS. We will see O_O!
I Broke Your Soda:
30000 / 75000 words. 40% done!
-MARs
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| Merry Christmas Eve! |
[ December 24th, 2007 | 9:00pm ] |
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Wow.
First off, I was an idiot to assume I could finish my book through the holidays. I didn't want to celebrate them but you know how family is. I'm not saying I was all Bah-humbug but I didn't want to have to consume all my time to it which unfortunately I did causing my writing time to...disappear.
I have written very little but hopefully after the New Years I hope to finally finish it. If I'm lucky I'll be done by January 5th and I will then start contacting agents by then.
Dear Santa,
I want an agent for Christmas k thx.
lulz.
I Broke Your Soda:
28500 / 75000 words. 38% done!
-MARs
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| The Plan. |
[ December 17th, 2007 | 6:26pm ] |
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So, I've got a plan.
But first...I'm going to fill you in on my...predicament.
Three years ago I told my Dad that I wanted to rent a very cheap studio apartment in downtown St. Augustine. I was sixteen at the time. My plan back then was to live downtown for two years allowing that time to give myself my own 'space' and to help me write on my own. Without any stress or worry. My Dad freaked, not because I was sixteen and too young for an apartment but because he hates anything that is 'rented', he claims it's like flushing money down the toilet since you're not paying to own and because you can't make money off of it later down the road. He is...a money man.
So what does he do? Instead of just letting me rent a cheap-ass apartment for a few years (something that I wouldn't be obligated to after I had spent the two years I originally wanted to downtown and could just up and leave onto my next adventure when I wanted to) he decides to BUILD a two story house right in the middle of downtown. Three years and $400,000 later my Dad has a half built house without a C/O, I'm almost nineteen years old, and my wanting to spend two years downtown (during the years of 16-18 because after that I planned to escape to Europe) has expired. My Dad has the notion of me moving in the house once it's done and living downtown for at LEAST a few years or so. I'm not regretting him building the house, after all it was his decision what right did I have to stop him? But it's hard to tell him that...that isn't my plan anymore. (Also keep in mind though that the house wasn't really built 'just for me', he saw it as an investment--and--it won't be going to waste. He's selling the ranch and moving into the house downtown so it'll be in good use....)
Now this...is my plan.
In early January (after the holidays) Tobias and I plan to get married and then take a roadtrip to the closest Swedish Consulate to fill out the necessary forms they need for me to get a Swedish Residence Permit, the waiting period is as long as six months. During the month of January I also hope to hear from some literary agents I will be sending queries to, my top choice is Maya Rock at Writer's House but that would be like winning the lotto and lets face it...I'm not that lucky but one can dream. My Dad is waiting till mid February till he gets a registered C/O for the house downtown because he wants to save money on taxes. After that he plans to let me and Tobias move in. A month later--March 17th to be exact--Tobias will be going back to Sweden. By then I would have waited about 2-3 months for the Residence Permit to be cleared so I could hear from them as early as March, if not I'll have to wait till June...at the latest. Hopefully if I have successfully gotten an agent around Jan-March I should have a publisher snatch up my manuscript around the time I should be receiving the Residence Permit, that is if it takes all the way to June to get it.
Hopefully--if all goes well--I should get an advance from them and I plan to use whatever money I get from it--no matter how little--to fund my trip to Sweden to be with Tobias and hopefully if I get enough money...possibly even get an apartment soon after. The tricky part is that getting an advance from a publisher is a HUGE gamble. Especially in my genre. I could get anywhere from $5,000 to $800,000. I'm hoping to at least get $45,000 but I doubt that'll happen...especially since I'll be just getting my foot in the door. The good thing though is that my book is aimed towards 'young adults' and they are the biggest and most trustworthy of readers in the market. If a YA book does well it will definitely have a strong cult following; some good examples are Harry Potter, The Twilight Series, and His Dark Materials. All of which have spawned movies as well. Also, my book is one in a series. Series books get a bigger advance, especially if they have enough faith in it to go ahead and give it a 3-book deal try which is what they did to Stephenie Meyer and her first advance was around $750,000. Which is a huge shocker because most publishers avoid books that exceed more than 300pages like the plague.
If all goes well I should be going to Sweden with my Residence Permit in hand around June/July and should be getting an apartment about two to three months later. I'm crossing my fingers!!!
I Broke Your Soda
25000 / 75000 words. 33% done!
-MARs
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| God Jul. |
[ December 10th, 2007 | 2:36pm ] |
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For those curious, 'God Jul' is--I think--the equivalent of Merry Christmas in Swedish...or at least something very similar.
Moving On!
So we bought presents for all of Tobias's immediate family members which includes his mom, dad, grandma (mom's side), his brothers andre, robin, daniel, joakim, his little sister evalina, and his step mother/father anne-mari and bosse. I think that's everybody anyways lol. We spent around 120$ on the gifts alone and I wrapped all the gifts myself in pretty wrapping paper, some curly ribbon, and some spiffy shiny bows.
It cost about 50$ to ship from FL,USA to Lulea, Sweden.
I had a lot of fun helping Tobias pick out the gifts for everyone and I'm a big sucker for wrapping gifts it's my favorite part lol.
Now, to ruin the surprise of what everyone got! (they don't read my blog--and I hope they never do lol--so I won't be spoiling much!)
1. Doris (Tobias's Mom): A snowman snow globe and a tin hollow ball tree ornament that has candy inside! YUM!
2. Lennart (Tobias's Dad): 3 pairs of socks (lol yeah I know but Tobias insisted) and a tin hollow ball tree ornament that has candy inside! YUM!
3. Tobias's Grandma (Mom's Side): A nice card and a notepad/pen that is in a shiny purple tin case. It's very nice and I think she'll enjoy it. We will be sending a portrait of the both of us (Tobias and I) framed and wrapped in a home-made scarf later ;)
4. Andre: A spiderman costume, a ninja action figure toy set, and a small thing of bubbles!
5. Robin: A 5(or 6) set of holographic guitar pics and a super mario bros. t-shirt.
6. Daniel: A World of Warcraft graphic novel, the 1st in the series.
7. Joakim: A Darth Vader action-figure.
8. Evalina: A digital photo-camera, a kiddy watch (w/ interchangeable face plates), and a small thing of bubbles!
9. Anne-Mari (Tobias's Stepmom): A bottle of bath bubble soap.
10. Bosse (Tobias's Stepdad): 2 pairs of socks. (I really don't think Tobias knows what to get older men lol)
Other than being Santa Tobias and I have been trying to get together some papers for us to sign so that I can get a residence permit for Sweden. Hopefully--if everything goes well--we will be moving to Uppsala and getting an apartment there in mid-late summer. I'll keep you posted!
-MARs
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| Life and the Upcoming Holiday Dread. |
[ December 3rd, 2007 | 4:21pm ] |
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Ahhhhh!
Unfortunately I Broke Your Soda's final draft edits have been put on the back burner for several reasons.
1. World of Warcraft: Yeah...I totally got addicted. I've had it for about two months now but Tobias has been so back and forth on servers constantly switching between a bunch of them didn't get me too hooked because starting over about 12 times with only getting up to lvl 13-15 and we all know that's not fun....but yeah I've got a kickass Blood Elf Warlock on the PvP Saregas server. Lvl 13 atm....but yeah, loooove it!
 (WoW art of a blood elf warlock/mage? eh, pretty none the less!)
2. WoW Fan Comic: Yeah...you knew it was coming, I really want to try my hand at making a WoW comic because i've always wanted to make a webcomic but all my ideas are way to serious and in-depth and when trying to apply that through art it can get very stressful spending up to eight hours on one friggin' panel UGH. WoW would be a lot of fun because I can just make silly strips at my own leisure and stuff....yeah.
 (Adventures of Blanc, a fan comic for the Alliance. Example of what I'd be doing)
3. Electric Guitar: I'm saving up for an electric left handed guitar. The one I have my eye on is the butterfly electric by Daisy Rock. At first I was laughing my ass off when I saw it, it's cute and all I admit but a little too cute and girly but I have grown to love it. I'm hoping that after awhile I'll get the courage to re-paint it or save up for a professional to get it painted. Since the base is in the shape of a butterfly I'll keep within the theme, probably a different type of butterfly so far my choices are tied between the monarch and the malachite hmm...maybe even a luna moth XD but I still dunno yet.
 (This is it, kinda girly eh? But I still like it...cheapest electric guitar that also comes in a left handed version. Plus, it's small which is great cause of my fuckin' midget hands XD!)
 (A monarch alternative finish for the Daisy Rock guitar, unfortunately they don't appear to sell this style anymore. I WANT THIS ONE UGH!!!)
4. Car (Smart Fortwo Passion 2008): OMG, I am in LOVE with this car. Okay here's the deal I use to hate cars and the idea of driving one they just scared me and I was planning to live in a european city so overwhelmed in public transportation (subways, air-trams, buses, etc.) that having your own personal car would be reduntant. But after spotting this cutie in the streets of Germany back in '06 and hearing that it's now coming out in the U.S. in January of 2008 I HAD to have it! I'm getting horrible cabin fever and pissing off everyone because I don't have a way to 'get out'. This will be perfect. I'm going to get my license in mid-late December probably and get the car hopefully in January when it comes out.
 (the cutest car ever!!!11, this is the model and color I want, apple red with the silvery-white accents. LOVE!)
5. Cell Phone: I had the SideKick II before I went to Sweden but once I left I had to cancel my phone and haven't gotten a new one since and unfortunately it's near impossible to not have one so I'm going to have to bit my tongue and start saving. I had T-Mobile before so I'm sticking with them, so far i'm aiming for the T-Mobile Dash kinda like a phone/palm pilot all in one. Like a mini-computer. It's niiiice.
 (Yay!!! Anything that includes a built in keyboard has got me sold! 150$ not bad, waaay better than a friggin' SideKick II)
-MARs
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| I Broke Your Manuscript. |
[ November 26th, 2007 | 12:08pm ] |
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For those that aren't in the know of all that is Mars I'm currently working on editing I Broke Your Soda into it's final draft before I send it out to agents. It's completed yes, but the grammar and punctuation checks are whats holding me back. I re-write the final draft into the 'final' product from beginning to end, nothing really changes though just some corrections and blending techniques so make sure I don't rush it too much but I keep it fast-paced enough to where you don't get bored and I'm big on grammar checks because constant screw ups really distracts the readers and god do I hate that.
So this is what I have done so far:
I Broke Your Soda
21000 / 75000 words. 28% done!
Pretty good but waaay off and I've been working on the final draft since I went to Sweden but wanting to spend time with Tobias has really slowed me down. Anyways I'm really getting back into the routine of things and I have set a deadline for me to be done with this by the first week of January if not by Christmas.
Sooo from now on every Monday when I update my blog I will at the end of each post put down the 'progress bar' so you know how much I have done and how much I have left to go.
Only 28%?! WTF!!!11one
-MARs
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| Play Dates. |
[ November 12th, 2007 | 2:03pm ] |
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My dad tried to hook me up with his new book keeper's niece. I wasn't against it but it's a little weird how excited they both were. Acting like I was a 5 year old little kid in need of a friend to play tea party with. Eventually though I did meet her and she was really nice, surprisingly we hit it off so that's cool. Now I don't have to be a secluded hermit crab, that's always a plus.
Besides that nothing much has been going on just the usual. I keep putting off editing IBYS and I still haven't written the short story for the Writer's Digest contest and time is running out. I've also heard of something called NaNoWriMo which can be found here. It stands for National Novel Writing Month. The premise is really cool and I wish I could have known about this before-hand so I could have joined in though I really shouldn't because I still have other things to finish but hopefully next year, I'm deffinitely looking forward to it.
Must...Do...Something...
-MARs
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| 30 Days of Night is 2 Hours of Hell... |
[ November 5th, 2007 | 1:54pm ] |
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Yeah, you knew this was coming...
WTF?! That movie sucked so much. I hated how they depicted Vampires. I like that they weren't depicted as the 'evil villain of the week' like they're depicted in other movies but still....they sucked. It was hard to look at them...they were pathetic. The movie wasn't scary at all...damnit.
So yeah, it was like...shiiiit. Some stupid people in a small town get slaughtered by these horrible monstrosities because they're all stupid. It was like a town of white eskimos where being hunted down by dogs in fancy 2-piece suits....riiiiight.
DO NOT WATCH THIS MOVIE!
It sucked balls, what more can I say?!
So...if there are any vampire movies out there that actually do justice please leave a comment I'd love to know of some good movies out there. The best vampire movie I can think of on the spot is Dracula 2000. Now THAT was a good movie. LOVED IT!
-MARs
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| Yay For Halloween! |
[ October 29th, 2007 | 1:47pm ] |
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Halloween is just around the corner and I feel a bit bummed out cause I can't go 'all out' this year. I feel like I'm half-assing it. Annnnyways onto some better news, Emily and Carlo can come with us to see the movie but we're probably not going Downtown because they have to be back by 9pm LAME. It's a school day for them lol, losers.
Anyways I've been hearing some bad reviews about '30 Days of Night' and I'm not really looking forward to it because I know it'll just let me down but I'm gonna go see it anyway. If anything it'll give me a reason to bitch.
Oh btw I also got this really cute electronic dancing thing that is fashioned after the 'one eyed one horned flying purple people eater' and it's so cute!!! When you press it it'll dance and sing about 20seconds of the original Purple People Eater song.
It ROCKS!!!
I love halloween goodies <3
-MARs
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| Should I Make a Webcomic? |
[ October 22nd, 2007 | 12:33pm ] |
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I've been wanting to for ages but could never pull through. I come up with great ideas but I tend to complicate them too much. Unlike in my writing where I can make it as complex and intricate as I can possibly imagine my art skills limit me to certain things. I can't really pull of some of the things I can through my words and writing.
I've been trying to come up with a simple story line just to have fun with but it always gets complicated when I think too hard about it. Why can't I be simple!!!
Anyways, If I do make a web comic I was thinking of joining the artists of Wirepop, from the looks of the comics they feature I think my creativity and style would fit right in and if I was accepted I could make a little money off of it on the side. But then I remembered that I have tons of other goals I need to finish....Like finishing the grammar checks on IBYS which I have been putting off for so long...
But I can still pull off making comics without being obligated to update every week. There is a site called Entervoid.com where artists battle one another by creating a character and inserting them into a fictional city called 'Void'. I think it'd be a lot easier but every time I make a character I complicate their back-story way too much....I even complicate their design which would suck in the long run if I had to draw their costume over and over and over again.
Oh well, we will see where this leads me.
Wish me luck!
-MARs
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| Halloween Blues. |
[ October 15th, 2007 | 12:25pm ] |
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Halloween is my FAVORITE holiday of the year. I hate most others so I like to go all out with Halloween. Unfortunately my previous travels in Sweden has left my little piggy bank dry and I can't afford a costume which really sucks. So far the plan Tobias and I have is to go to the movies on Halloween, see '30 Days of Night' which I hope is good, if the butcher vampires like most of Hollywood does you'll be sure to hear from me about it.
Afterwards we're planning to go Downtown and walk around at night, maybe even try to catch a ghost tour. But those last plans will probably fall through but I do know that the movie is still on. If it's alright with Emily and Carlo's parents we will be going to the movies with them and then maybe going Downtown.
Sad thing is I have no costume....*cries*
Because of this I have made a promise to myself that when I have enough money I will purchase/make 31 unique costumes and every day of October I will wear a different costume. Even if I don't even leave the house, even if I have a serious job somewhere (doubt it, I want to be a stay at home author!), even if I'm just going out to pick up groceries, and even if I'm going out to eat.
I will then of course deck my house out with Halloween decorations the 1st of October and take then off probably around Nov. 2nd.
Yeah, I'm totally Halloween Hardcore xXx! hahaha
-MARs
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| A Tale of Enemies. |
[ October 8th, 2007 | 11:55am ] |
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So, it turns out I actually have an enemy from high school. I graduated from high school in 2006 and the 'enemy' graduated I think 2005 but still to this day he holds a grudge of which I didn't even know about till a few days ago.
He's being very childish and refuses to talk to me about it in fact he went as low as to blocking me...lol. Silly boy. He even has this warped version of who I am which consists a bit of my freshman immaturity and a handful of hatred built up in himself that has horribly mutated. He tried attacking me about my 'goals' and he was so off it was funny. What's even funnier is when I tried to tell him what my goals really are and what kind of person I really am he refused to accept it and held onto this warped rag doll of a monster that he imagines me as being. So...if that makes him happy so be it.
His name is Aaron Maillot. I met him freshman year and he was a really nice guy. A bit too much with the dramatics and a little too involved with the high school drama but other than that he was sweet. But it turns out that near the end of my freshman year and the beginning of my sophmore year he started to envision me as the embodiment of Satan. A compliment sure, but an offensive interpretation on his part. Which...again doesn't offend me. Obvious signs showing that he doesn't even know me. It feels like he hates some other girl I have never met but unfortunatly shares the likes of my face and body.
So like I said he never told me exactly why I'm his mortal enemy but I have come to the conclusion that it's because of some high school crushes. In freshman year I started dateing a boy named Alex who was funny and nice but turned into a cold statue everytime I tried to hug him or kiss him on the cheek. His best friend Tom started to like me...a LOT...which I just realized a few days ago when I came across a note he wrote but I don't want to dwell on it because I like to keep the past in the past and strive towards the future. So it was a horrible sitcom love triangle.
I was dateing Alex but all we felt like were good friends and didn't share anything a couple would but I stuck by him. His friend Tom secretly liked me but kept it to himself. I was hearing rumors that Alex was trying to get a girl friend of ours (Natalie) to go out with him...according to Natalie but I didn't think much of it at the time. And....the list goes on.
But it all seems to start when Tom was expressing the fact that he was 'bi-curious' and confused. Aaron then jumped at that and started to like him but he went a little too far. Tom was scared to be around him after awhile and very uncomfortable. Every time Aaron came around and tried the best to turn on his teddy-bear charm I could see Tom's brow furrow, his head sink into his shoulders and sometimes even see his fists tighten. He liked Aaron but only as a friend and Aaron refused to accept this.
The straw was broken (I think) when Aaron came up to Tom's house and gave him a rose. Tom did his best to express the fact that he never found Aaron to be more than a friend and probably never would in the near future. Tom was confused but he deffinetely wasn't looking for a boy to be with and at the time he was crushing on me which I hadn't a clue of.
Tom and I started hanging out more, Aaron had backed off and Natalie kept feeding me rumors that Alex was up to his old mischevious flirtations again. Eventually Alex and I broke up and soon after I ended up dating Tom which was a bit of a rebound and I regretted it but Tom was really nice and I liked being around him. Minus the fact that he was emo at the time and kept walking into traffic claiming that cars where just big pillows....ugh.
Aaron seemed ok with it and appeared to accept that Tom wasn't really into guys. I even asked Aaron if he was ok and he didn't express anything negative towards me. If a friend was strong and brave enough to come up to me and tell me that by dating someone they had liked was hurting them so much that it would turn me into their enemy years later I wouldn't have gone out with Tom. So after a few months Aaron started to distance himself from me but never expressed any form of hatred.
Now, 2 or 3 years later it seems that Aaron hates my guts now and acts as if I was personally attacking him by going out with Tom. Tom and I broke up about 4months after we had gone out I just couldn't deal with his over exaggeration of 'emo-ness' and the fact that he wouldn't allow me to have any 'guy friends'.
Now I am happily engaged to Tobias and have no ties to the high school drama that Aaron to this day refuses to let go.
Maybe one day he'll be mature enough to talk to me about it like an adult but till then I'm 100% willing to be his enemy. Hey, it makes life fun.
Bring it on Aaron!!! -MARs
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| Entering a Contest. |
[ October 1st, 2007 | 11:31am ] |
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So I decided to enter a contest at Writer's Digest about a week ago when they sent me a postcard. Last year I submitted online and the website glitched which pissed me off. This year I plan to send it in the old fashion way via snail mail. Hopefully that doesn't get lost too.
The contest is for a short short story that has to be 'bold but brief'. I'd submit my last year's entry but I have a feeling it was WAY too bold for their blood. I imagine a table of judges all introverted, uptight, know-it-alls in their mid 40's. So for their sake I'm going to have to turn it down a notch. I know I have to because I ordered the booklet that the first 25 winners or so were published in and they were all dull and boring...none were bold what-so-ever except there was one I really liked about a guy who went back through time and it got 4th place. These judges obviously have poor taste so I'm going to have to lower myself to their level but still try to keep my creative dignity.
Anyways if any of you feel like entering the website can be found here. The deadline is Dec. 3rd so you have plenty of time but if you happen to miss it don't worry they do it every year and have been for at least 10....so it's not going to stop anytime soon.
-MARs
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| Crappy Airline Food... |
[ September 24th, 2007 | 12:52am ] |
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Yep, I was right. MAJOR jet lag, I've been doing nothing but sleep the past few days and on top of that I've been feeling really sick. I was afraid the airline wouldn't give us any food for the trip over because we rode in economy class and I figured even if they did give us food, it'd be like...small portions of snack food so I made the mistake of over eating...
They actually gave us full course meals, we rode 3 different airplanes to get back home so on each plane I had the same fear that they wouldn't give us food so I over ate on all the flights which was a mistake because now I'm sick...uuuugh. Airplane food sucks, it doesn't really taste bad, hey I'm not picky, but my body REALLY didn't like it. Now that I think of it who comes up with the meal choices? Seriously? It made no sense, some of the food I had NEVER seen in my life...but eh, it tasted good enough.
The only stuff I liked were these little kiddy cup things that had this weird orange shortcake pie thing...yeah weird I know but it was yummy!
Ok...now to go back to sleep for forever.
-MARs
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| I Am Officially, An Idiot. |
[ September 17th, 2007 | 12:44am ] |
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Yeah, seriously I can't believe I did this. The day before we're about to go to America I accidentally wash Tobias's passport in the washing machine!!! My heart exploded when I found it, it was seriously demolished and I was panicking like crazy.
We went to the police station to see if it'd be acceptable, they said it would for any country except for America, the US would be an ass about it for sure they assured us...so we had to shell out 150$ for a temp passport that only took 5min. to print out and it's a nice passport! Even nicer than the American ones and looks exactly like his old one except it's not maroon, it's pink! Well...I thought that was funny.
Anyways I'm SO glad we had that figured out, I was seriously in tears thinking he wouldn't be able to go but we got everything fixed! It was really tight too, had JUST enough money after getting the passport to get home on the bus and then we were completely broke. Thankfully Tobias's dad offered to take us to the airport, we leave Luleå at 6:35am I think...ugh...this day is gonna give me MAJOR jetlag...but at least I'm not going at it solo.
Wish me luck!
-MARs
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| Busy Busy Busy |
[ September 10th, 2007 | 12:39am ] |
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Hmm, not much to say rather than to say we've been really busy getting everything ready and packed to go. There is so much to do to get ready, we have to make sure someone will watch over Tobias's cats, that someone will clear out all the unneeded junk and furniture from the apartment...and so on.
We have most of it figured out but we're still running around like chickens with our heads cut off.
Hmm...I wonder what that actually looks like...chickens running around with their heads cut off I mean XD, wicked!
-MARs
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| Coming Back to the States! |
[ September 3rd, 2007 | 12:35am ] |
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Yep! As much as I LOVE and ADORE Sweden I'm coming back to the states this September, the 17th to be exact. I was getting a bit homesick and it was getting pretty insane and stressful here. Not to mention the fact that the winter winds up here in Northern Sweden nearly throw me to the ground when I try to go outside :(
Anyways I look forward to coming back and then...I don't. AHHH!! It's ripping me apart inside! But in the end I think it's a good thing. Thankfully Tobias is coming with me!!! YEAH!!! Tobias is awesome :D
-MARs
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| I Broke Your Soda, CH. 1 Excerpt |
[ August 27th, 2007 | 12:29am ] |
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I have the first chapter of I Broke Your Soda on my website! I don't know how long it'll be up so read it while you can. There are some little errors like grammar and punctuation, but I fixed most of them.
You can read it here:
http://marsdefden.com/ibysexcerpt.html
I can't think of anything else to say...eh. If you like the excerpt feel free to post a comment to this blog entry or sign up to the forums on my site and talk about it there :)
Enjoy!
-MARs
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| Website Face Lift |
[ August 20th, 2007 | 12:23am ] |
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My website just got a face lift. Not a new layout...I just fixed some things and made it look more appealing. I really do like the layout and I'm surprised I've kept it this long, I usually change layouts on my websites every month or so, this is an all time record for sure!
You can check it out here:
www.MarsDefden.com
There's not much different, just added some more graphics and pages.
Enjoy!
-MARs
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| Roomates? |
[ August 13th, 2007 | 12:17am ] |
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Sooo, I've been talking to my friend Sam who currently resides in Jacksonville, FL. about potential roomatey-esque...things. So yeah, I don't really want to be living in my mom's trailer when I get back, at least not permanently and I don't want to live with my dad because that'd just give him initiative to control my life even more than he already does...
I think having an apartment with people my own age would be as close to freedom as I can get. We're still working out the kinks, and it'll include me having to get a job once I get back to the states...but I think it'll work out!
If it does hopefully we'll be living downtown (St. Augustine) and in walking distance to alllll the good stuff. Downtown is kickass awesome! Can't wait :D
-MARs
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